i recall 2008 as being the year with the most successes and the most failures.

2009 must be the fastest year with the most irrational decisions. I have never felt so complicated in life too. achieved half of the goals i set out at the beginning of the year, while came to realise how much more is there for me to grow. also the first time i felt so incapable, childish, and so much more to learn.

The biggest learning in 2009 must be - how to appreciate the things i get despite the downside of an event, and to think more on consequences. its easy to quit especially at critical moments and hope for a better result after that, but realistically speaking... and then.. so what? why would things get better (in the long run) should i walk away. Yet learning how to handle and strive for the balance, especially on health matters....


would spend the last 2 weeks thinking about my goal in 2010.

looking forward to HK.

This is turning out to be a monthly entry.

Learning to learn.

Thinking about old kendo days in APU.

i carry your heart with me

i carry your heart with me(i carry it in my heart) i am never without it (anywhere i go you go,my dear; and whatever is done by only me is your doing,my darling) i fear no fate(for you are my fate,my sweet)i want no world(for beautiful you are my world,my true)and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant and whatever a sun will always sing is you here is the deepest secret nobody knows (here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide) and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart)

ee cummings