this might be the one - or one of the last posts - i will have before i embark my journey to fulfill a life dream in Japan.

So after generating over 10 titles that I aim to read within 2 years (not to mention that I've only decided on the titles this morning!!!) I went down to Dymock and grabbed 5 of them. *satisfied*

I've never bought so many books at one shot - usually I'll get one or two at most, and enjoy them slowly. Well, the sad thing is, it is only occasionally that I'll meet a book that captures my heart entirely (sth like 1 book a year).. so the rest of them are half way read, and I'll desert them for work.

Anyway - this morning while I was surfing around, I had the TV running as usual. I wasn't paying attention to most of the dialogs until the main bad guy (apparently last few episodes of this anime titled gun and sword) said something inspiring about what life is all about. (he said it while he was portrayed as a good guy helping this girl who's lost in mind, only later revealed that he was the bad guy that the main character has been searching for, also the guy who captured the brother of the girl and that's why the girl's on a journey with the main character to search for her brother... something like that - i've ONLY watched the first episode before, and after 1.5 month, which is the 2nd time i watch this show, its screening one of the last episodes....)

SOOOOOO he said something inspiring about life I thought I would wanna blog it down after my shopping trip. Ya.. He said, he spent his life pondering what's the meaning of life, why are people alive, and what should people do while they are living - since all will die one day. He then said, after many many years of pondering, he came to realise that life itself is meaningless. BUT it is dreams that human holds that makes life meaningful. So human spend their life searching for a dream, and try to fulfill the dream (which is meant to be their life time goal). In the process of pursuing this selfish dream of an individual, many people might get hurt. That is why besides individual dreams, there should be a common dream in life too - a common dream for everybody, such as world peace. For this dream, everyone works together towards the dream, and support each other in the midst of pursuing this common goal.

Well, I thought it was very interesting. It wasn't the original quote, plus I was surfing while I was listening to the Japanese dialog (and believe it or not but my Japanese is REALLY NOT GOOD enough.. far from normal naive, but I'll work on it!) So I added some of my thoughts.... and I think it makes a hell lot of sense... even though he's the "bad guy" (the episode stopped at the sense when his hand was revealed - his hand is made of aluminum, which is his identity!)

This morning is quite inspiring! Cos I found out about Monkey Majik while watching Music Station, and generated a book list to accomplish over 2 years (inspired by a director from my place of internship!).. while I skim through some of the books in the bookshop, I also discovered my GOAL in what i wanna do in Finance. I've always wanted to work in the financial world, but I could yet to pin point down to the exact thing I wanted to do. On the outside, I tell everyone that IB was what I wanted, only because of the prestige and the challenge (I guess these are nature of an ambitious person, and I slowly come to discover that I am ambitious...... FINE I am!! Though I always denied it all these years until 2 weeks ago. I guess I wasn't as aggressive in the past. As I blogged before, its like a change from not wanting to be a loser to someone striving to be a winner. SO NOW its my turn to fly!)

SOOoOooOoo... I was typing, though I said I wanted to do IB - I often doubted myself if IB is something I really really wanted to do. I mean - yea I know what it is about, I heard, I went for the interviews, I talked to all the directors, HR, associate, analysts etc of some IB banks here and there, but there's nothing really that is that attracts my heart. In fact, I was feeling slightly reluctant, and unready to dive into the IB industry - and that made up one of the many reasons for my choice in the MBA over the list of possible internships and jobs offered.


In conclusion, Im getting naggy, and I've found out what I TRULY wanna go for. Its good to feel that I have a clear direction that is in parallel with my heart. SO COME ON, I can't wait... for anything and everything to happen.