I've decided to dedicate some time before i sleep during the weekdays to blog about my life in Tokyo and my internship experience.

After crying like mad for the past 3 days, I have finally managed to hold back my tears today. As in, literally trying very hard to hold back. I'm blessed to have my mom and mos to call me and talked to me for the past 2 nights to keep me sane as a human.

Living in Tokyo is sad. May be because I am so alone. I started to think about what I really want in life. So yes, I have the highest GPA in my class, and I was interviewed by MBA networks, appeared on news, going to appear on TV. I had one of the best internships anyone could ask for...

Talking about work, I ended 2 days of work. I felt like I finished 2 intensive courses in school. Its really a lot a lot of learning, and some unbearable prestige.

Day 1-2 of work:
-both days overtime
-arrived 30 mins before start time but everyone was there before i reached
-when i left, everyone was still there...

im assigned to this department called PIG. work is quite competitive, and im assigned to the core business, part of the advisory team in core investment banking…. and so my role is to advise. in order to advise, first i need knowledge… and of all things, i am assigned to do J-REITs. I didn’t know a single thing about J-REITs (before yesterday), but i was given 13 hours yesterday, and about 300 pages to read and FINISH reading, there's about 6 HBS case like thingy, and the rest are all white papers), and so now i am suppose to know all about REITs. i felt like i finished 2 credits course in a single day.

Today, I attended a 40 min training course on Bloomberg, followed by 3 hours of hands on experience. Starting from tomorrow, im suppose to produce ONE report a day… a report that my professor gave us 3 weeks to do and my boss said I should be able to finish in 3 hours... and my boss told me "just get used to having a little free time and we would get you a couple more projects in a couple of weeks"

and i was like...... "am i free now?"

i told him honestly that I can’t finish in 3 hours, and he said... yeah, but soon you'll be fine. so does that mean if i cant finish a report a day i can't go home?

In 2 days I’ve participated in more than 5 meetings; 2 training courses; and read 300 pages. I've also experienced many formalities, and (not related to work specifically) the crazy rush hour squeeze on JR trains in the morning.

There's good stuff of course, but its time to sleep. I need to wake up earlier tomorrow to start on my first report..............






* this is not a blog... im just bitching.