oh gosh, i really hate to blog in the school library but seems like i dont have much of a choice.

my lap top at home is not cooperating with me. Is there any computer genius out there?! help me!!! *sobs*

Anyway, so many things happened over the past week, and there's so much that I wanted to write about... I dont feel like recalling them anymore. The happy moments, as well as the sad ones, I'll try my best to use my brain to remember.

Just a few things I wanna write now.

1. The library is pretty cold, and whenever I'm in the "air-conditioned region" in Singapore, I wonder how I might miss Singapore's weather in Niigata... will I?

2. I got a new sister - from Xiamen. She's a really sweet girl, though she's leaving Singapore for good on May 27th - that's the same time as my flight to HK!

3. Recently I'm reading a Japanese book - Aya's diary. Its really touching. She's installing a new perspective to life and set me thinking quite a bit.

4. I dropped my ezlink card down the drain. When I was feeling pretty low about it, Kok told me that "At least some times can still be replaced". He's really right, even though there was a lot of money in the card, and that the card was with me since year 1, I can, somewhat, to a large extent, replace it. There are many other more precious things that, once lost, can never be retrived. I must treasure more things around me, appreciate more thoughts, and learn to love more.

5. Sent my mom a super size mother's day card, and in the end, she has yet to receive it. I hope its still fine, despite its super size.

6. Without realising it sooner enough, school term is coming to an end. This term, 3A, is one of my more fruitful terms around. Its good to have goals, and work towards it. Makes me feel less guilty and more satisfied. I am not wasting my life.

7. Does time really heal all things? How? If time heals things, somewhat, it makes me feel more guilty. It seems as though its not time that is healing, but I am losing to the test of time. That my feelings are fading, and that I'm just becoming a weaker person...

8. I feel like going to Macau, and many other parts of the world. I want to expand my knowledge, my perspetives, my world view. I wish to learn more.


From time to time, there's this scent of melancholy twingling in my heart. . like now.

I wonder what it is.