Recently, I've asked many friends when they are intending to get married. I didn't realise its so soon, but yea, I'm already 22. 22, oh dear, its so young and old. 22..

Most of them wanna get married at 25 ~ 27, though that's not so possible for me. Gosh, I'm already 22! After graduate sch I'll be 24. If I work in Japan, I'll only start work in 25 (since the recruitment is so standard and everybody start work in April). If I work for 2 years, that will make me 27! Then I'm hoping to work in HK, so if I work for 3 years, that will make me 30+!!! I wanna get married when I'm 27, 28, or 30. Not 29, cos 29 sounds older. But at this rate, seems like 35 might sound more reasonable.

Each day feels closer to farewell. I believe all things come in phrases. Especially feelings.

I'm now in stage 2 - after the initial excitment and enthusiasim, I'm starting to feel more of the reality. I'm leaving Singapore and Hong Kong for 5 years. 5 years..... Not short leh. Even though I sorta came to Singapore (from HK) "alone", I wasn't so alone after all. I have relatives nearby, and after 2 years I get to stay with my brothers - e.g. have a home. This time round, I'm going to a place where I am still not confident of the language, starting everything out from new. Really everything, like buying rice cooker, iron, mop, table lamp etc. Its not just an exchange anymore - but a new life. To some extent, I'm scared. Even though I shop happily at kakaku looking at printer models, or surfing AU/softbank sites looking for HP, I'll be really alone. Sometimes I wonder - what if I die overseas... My friends would still think that I'm living fruitfully somewhere in Japan as my body gets shipped back to Singapore?! haha.

I'm really starting to smell independent - as I am getting independent income from MIF - my mom said she wont send me allowance anymore.. but she's going to give me a lump sum initially. I have no idea what's "a lump sum", but its suppose to be a one time settle in fee from her.... I feel more distant, and wondered if I would like my new life.

Spiderman 2 is going to start screening at 7pm, but I dont have a TV to watch..... ARGH! May be I'll cook dinner now instead. Should I get a TV in Japan?

Also, I have 3 weeks holidays in December. I can't decide what to do with them now... any ideas?! (Singapore to IUJ is over 12 hours of travelling - so asking me to return to Singapore is quite impossible... >= 12 hours!!? More like, from my hostel to Narita is already 4~5 hours. Kinda puts people off...) I wanna go to Thailand... umm.. heehehehee*